The Big Bang Theory actress Melissa Rauch and her husband Winston are expecting their first child this fall!
While the pair are ecstatic about the pregnancy, Rauch has had an emotional pregnancy journey so far and opened up in an essay to Glamour.com about her emotions and struggles after suffering a miscarriage before this pregnancy. “Here is the only statement regarding my pregnancy that doesn’t make me feel like a complete fraud: ‘Melissa is expecting her first child. She is extremely overjoyed, but if she’s being honest, due to the fact that she had a miscarriage the last time she was pregnant, she’s pretty much terrified at the moment that it will happen again,’ ” Rauch begins.
“During the time when I was grieving over my pregnancy loss or struggling with fertility issues, every joyful, expectant baby announcement felt like a tiny stab in the heart,” she confessed. “So when I thought about having to share the news about expecting this baby, all I could think about was another woman mourning over her loss as I did… It felt a bit disingenuous to not also share the struggle it took for me to get here,” Rauch added.
She continues by recalling the emotional moments when she first lost her baby and called it “one of the most profound sorrows I have ever felt in my life” that “kickstarted a primal depression that lingered” in her. Her greatest words of wisdom to women who have experienced a miscarriage is to “be kind to” themselves and allow themselves to mourn.
She concludes her essay by hoping that opening up about her own struggle can also help mitigate the stigma around miscarriages and help women feel less alone when they are struggling with loss and infertility. “Although I can’t categorize these lessons of humble appreciation and gratitude as ‘reasons for this happening,’ I will consider them a silver lining,” she concludes by professing a valuable lesson she learned through her pregnancy challenges.