Reality star Ryan Knight passed away suddenly last November — something that has inspired soul-searching in his ex-girlfriend, Jemmye Carroll.
Jemmye and Ryan, who was found dead in his apartment (an autopsy provided no immediate cause of death), competed together on MTV’s The Challenge: Battle of the Exes II, which is airing right now. The show is dedicated to Ryan and fellow cast member Diem Brown, who also died last November after losing her battle with cancer.
“The last time I saw him was when we flew back together from Battle of the Exes,” Jemmye told Us Weekly at a press event for the show. “He passed away on a Thursday, Thanksgiving, and I talked to him on a Monday or Tuesday. We still talked a lot.”
“We’ve done these shows together, and we were constantly connected through our Challenge family and Real World family,” she continued. “Every show, he was there. I could never escape him.” She says she wouldn’t go back to a reality show on her own. “I don’t think it would ever feel right being there without him.”
Their relationship was a bit of a roller coaster. “There were times we would be good and times we would be bad,” she said. “One day he’d call me and we’d talk for an hour, the next day he’d call me and I wouldn’t want to talk to him at all. So it was very up and down.”