Kseniya Mikhaleva, the Russian model who was engaged to The Young and the Restless star Kristoff St. John at the time of his sudden death is devastated that she won’t be able to attend her fiance’s memorial service.
On Monday, March 4, the model took to Instagram to reveal that she wasn’t able to attend the service because of problems with her visa while she is currently living in Moscow.
“It is with deep regret and sorrow in my heart that I make this statement,” wrote Mikhaleva.“For a year, I was the happiest women on Earth. That changed in a second. I still cannot believe that Kristoff is gone, so early, so unexpectedly, one month after our last meeting in Moscow. In the two years that we were together, he taught me so much – how to love and be loved, how to open the best in other people, how to help people, and simply how to be a good human being. We planned to get married; we had many plans in the future together. With him gone, I have no idea what to do.”
“My thoughts and prayers are, first of all, with his two wonderful daughters whom he loved so much, with every member of his family, with his friends, and with the people that watched him every single day on television,” she continued. “People for whom he played, people who inspired him to work and live. Also, I want to state that I have seen several funds claiming that they were opened by me. As of today, I have not opened and am not planning to open any funds. Everything that you see was/is fake.”
“Right now, I want to be with him, his family, and his friends,” added. “I am getting thousands of support texts on my Facebook and Instagram and people are asking why I am not with him and how they can help. Several weeks ago I applied for an “emergency”visa for the funeral to say goodbye my fiancé and beloved💔💔💔. The reply from the Embassy was “No”. My heart is broken. I am going through this with a huge pain in my heart,and realize that I don’t have opportunity to say goodbye to him and put flowers on his grave. It is not right, not fair. 💔🕊Fly, my love, and finally find peace 🙏🏻❤️. Any person in my place would be torn into pieces. It’s scary, painful, and disgusting that I cannot be with my loved one and his family on his last journey to eternal peace.RIP @kristoffstjohn 💔💔💔🕊”
St. John happily announced his engagement to Mikhaleva in September 2018 writing, “She said yes” alongside a series of photos of the couples and the stunning diamond.
The Y&R actor was found dead in his home on February 3, 2019 and was investigated as a possible overdose. In the days after his death many shared emotional posts of mourning including Mikhaleva who wrote, “How did it happen ??? How ??? Why did you leave so early ???? and left me alone ….. I can’t believe 💔💔💔💔”
The actor, who played Neil Winters on the iconic daytime drama, had suffered with mental illness prior to his death and many close to him commented how he had never been the same since the death of his son, Julian St. John, by suicide in November of 2014.