On the Sunday, May 27 episode of Total Bellas, Nikki Bella revealed the moment she realized that she couldn’t go through with her wedding to John Cena.
It was during the engagement party that she noticed that something didn’t “feel right.” “So the engagement party is here. I feel so overwhelmed,” she told the cameras. “I honestly feel like I’m about to have an anxiety attack. I just feel like I’m on this roller coaster of emotions and I feel like I’m going to explode. It’s just all too much for me.”
During the party, her sister Brie Bella announced that her brother Garcia and his wife Lauren were expecting their second child and this got Nikki thinking about the fact that she really wants kids and that Cena was adamant about not wanting any. “I just know deep down I want a baby,” she confessed. “I just, I guess, I don’t know. I want to be a mom and I feel like I can’t live the rest of my life not having one.”
Later in the episode, the two had a heart-to-heart about the future of their relationship. “I don’t even know how to start except, um, I guess just like for some reason since Birdie’s been born and I’ve spent a lot of time with Birdie, it’s just brought up these feelings of really wanting to be a mom. I don’t know if I would regret it later on in life if I wasn’t,” Nikki told Cena. “I love you so much and I feel that has always been worth sacrificing for. I think just because we’re getting married and everything is so permanent. Not that it has made me feel suffocated, but it’s given me a bit of anxiety knowing that okay, the day 5/5 comes, like, that’s it. The mom thing is done.”
Cena then told her that he wasn’t sure if they should go through with the wedding. “I would never force you to not be a mom. I really want to say it’s a surprise, but I even told you this so many times this would happen. I’m not sure we should go through with this,” he said.
The couple was supposed to get married on May 5, but three weeks before the wedding, the two announced that they had called it off. They have since been spotted together in San Diego on May 19, and Cena made it clear during an episode of the Today show that he wanted to marry Nikki and have children with her.